“As I drove home from the film studios at Shepperton on a rain-swept June evening, my car skidded at the intersection below the entrance of the Western Avenue flyover. Within seconds I was moving at sixty miles an hour into the oncoming lane. As the car struck the central reservation the off-side tyre blew out and whirled off its rim. Out of my control, the car crossed the reservation and turned up the high-speed exit ramp. Three vehicles were approaching, mass-produced saloon cars whose exact model-year, colour schemes and external accessories I can still remember with the painful accuracy of a never-to-be eluded nightmare. The first two I missed, pumping the breaks and barely managing to steer my car between them. The third, carrying a young woman doctor and her husband, I struck head-on. The man, a chemical engineer with an American foodstuff company, was killed instantly, propelled through his windscreen like a mattress from the barrel of a circus cannon. He died on the bonnet of my car, his blood sprayed through the fractured windscreen across my face and chest. The fireman who later cut me out from the crushed cabin of my car assumed that I was bleeding to death from a massive open-heart wound.”
J.G. Ballard, Crash!

2019

“The deepest and most organic death is death in solitude, when even light becomes a principle of death. In such moments you will be severed from life, from love, smiles, friends and even from death. And you will ask yourself if there is anything besides the nothingness of the world and your own nothingness.”
Emil Cioran

2018